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you are the only one that i've been needingand that sentence is real. and i guess i accepted the truth today, even though i knew it long time ago. i didn't want to let you go, but seems like i have to. and thanks for all the lies and truths that you told me. especially lieing about not likeing her, thanks alot. i want to hate you but i can't. but still, i really really dislike her and you! it makes me wanna puke, thinking of you and her. no offence but you told me you don't like her? great, my friend's lieing to me. that really pissed me off. just fuck outta my life.
ok, today, great. happy & sad day. had d&t, so much work to do. coursework. but can use computer so i'm still fine with it. then recess, had picnic again. then social studies, free period. talk with ashraf and tyrone and bella. then english two periods. then no amaths but there's homework. great. then went to LP with bella, and gosh, i almost cried in public. and nvm about that. and then went back to school, raining. forget it, help fangching with her solar car, then went to play netball. missed it so much. and halfway through, can't take it anymore, just broke down and cry in the toilet.
then went to play again, decided that wanting to keep him is no use, so i'll just let go. then went back home with veneetha. and talk and laugh. great, now i have homework and a mind filled up with images of him. gonna be undergoing depression again later. my kinda of depression isn't those cutting myself up and stuffs or thinking about dieing by eating pills or whatever shit. its just listening to songs that reminds me of him, and feel sad about it. although it sounds lame, but that's my way. think you don't like it, FUCK OFF!
fuck, chibai, kanninabeichaochibai, fuck fuck fuck, chibai chibai chibai. nabei! fuckfuckfuck.